Relationship Defective

Well, here we are ... 2016, The guy that I so eloquently wrote about in my last two blogs turned out to be a deceitful asshole, so there's that. And now im onto the next relationship with a man that is totally not that. But of course, what does Sharonda do? She becomes a self sabotaging bitch! Its like im my own relationship double agent. Last night, he finally had enough with my attitude and called me out on it and we talked. Mainly he did the talking and I listened and then created my own narrative as to what he said. Needless to say,it has brought me to where I am right now.... Sitting at the dining room table in the dark at almost 4 in the morning, trying to type out my feelings. I can stop thinking about how defective I am when it comes to relationships. Which makes me question if im really built to be in a relationship.... I think I need to come with a warning label.