Single without children.

Well... I'm 35 years old. Never married and never have been pregnant. 
Confession time: I have been dating this very awesome guy for over 10 months, and to be honest, we have been very careless about our methods of birth control. I have spoken with him about our choices and wanted to basically let him know that as adults we both need to understand the risks we are taking when we are sleeping together and not using birth control. And for about a week, we went back to using condoms but that didn't last at all. 
Now lets go back a few weeks... I asked this gentleman what was going on between us because this was my attempt to do a litmus test on where he sees this relationship going. And his answer to me was very blunt and matter of factly. He told me that he does not share the same feelings for me as I do for him. Translation: he likes me but doesn't love me. Don't get me wrong. he said some other stuff but I honestly blacked out and didn't hear any of the rest of the conversation. 
So here goes... Last time we slept together, we didn't use protection and its now two weeks later and I am due to start my period any second now and there is a part of me that actually wants to be pregnant. Not to trap him into a relationship with me or anything like that. Hell, my mom took care of me and my big brother by herself and we came out ok. And she did it without being on the "System". 
Now for many many years I have had my future children names already down... Samantha Makenzie, Victoria Oreon Denae & Joshua Scott. Well just yesterday morning, I was up and thinking about the possibility of being with child when another name came to me that I had never thought of..... Justice Renee. 
I was talking to one of my good friends when she said something to me that made me think. She said our children pick us... I question that to an extent because why would any child choose to have a mom that abuses them or finds a man more important than caring for their own child. But at any rate, this is the only way I can explain this new name that came to me. Oh well We will find out in a week or so.